Sunday, February 27, 2011
A lightning flash of self-revelation
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Some might call it a guilty pleasure...
Saturday, January 8, 2011
A new song: Alone
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Your white elephant exchange
Somebody said it's different now; look, it's just the same.
Pharoahs spin the message, round and round the truth.
They could have saved a million people. How can I tell you?
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Moments: an epilogue and a repost (or riposte at myself)
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Moments
The moments we miss, in a moment we experience, are infinite. Among those billions of starry moments are many that we dearly wish we could have been present for. A group of friends gathered together; a birth; a death; a song; a kiss.
On some level, that has to be okay.
I think the easiest way to drive yourself insane is to be too acutely aware of all of the things that are happening without you, and allowing yourself to feel small, insignificant or unloved in that knowledge. Life goes on around us, everywhere.
I cannot allow myself to blot out the moments I experience by mourning the moments I WISH I'd experienced. The world--even my own personal world--moves without my direction; and it CAN. It is okay not to be chosen for every moment, it's not a critique.. They're allowed. You're allowed. I'm allowed.
Breathe. Let go. Live.
Moments
On some level, that has to be okay.
I think the easiest way to drive yourself insane is to be too acutely aware of all of the things that are happening without you, and allowing yourself to feel small, insignificant or unloved in that knowledge. Life goes on around us, everywhere.
I cannot allow myself to blot out the moments I experience by mourning the moments I WISH I'd experienced. The world--even my own personal world--moves without my direction; and it CAN. It is okay not to be chosen for every moment, it's not a critique.. They're allowed. You're allowed. I'm allowed.
Breathe. Let go. Live.
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Morning
You were up too late.
You didn't sleep well.
You had a nightmare.
You couldn't sleep at all.
You're well-rested.
You slept like a log.
You fell in love again in your dreams.
You overslept.
You popped up ready to go.
You couldn't drag your ass out of bed.
Every morning in our house I experience a sort of looking glass reality. Megan is always up first. She's the responsible morning person. It doesn't matter if she slept well or at all, if she has to get up to get ready for the day she does it. Period.
So I most often wake up to the sound of Megan pleading with Maggie to get up so that she'll be ready for school in time. Maggie cries...and yells...and whines...and refuses..and groans...and begs for more time.
The funny thing, the looking glass thing, is that all of the things Maggie says and does are in my head, too. She and I feel exactly the same way in the morning. Those moments when you see yourself in your kids are always so neat. And so, lately, I've been actually getting up with a wry outlook, even a wry smile, and helping to rouse Maggie because I totally get where she's at. I used to get angry, and frustrated. Then I remembered being on the receiving end of that anger and frustration, and how I felt it was unfair because I wasn't choosing to be so hard to get up. I look at Maggie and I know, it's just how her body works. So it's a long process to get her up, but I totally get it.
And, like always, I learn from my kids how to be a better adult, a better father, and a better husband. I have taken "Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For" by U2 as my opus for parenting. I have climbed highest mountain, I have run through the fields, only to be with you; but I still haven't found what I'm looking for.
I have come so far for the chance to parent you, but I'm not good enough yet. I'll keep climbing, keep running.
Friday, December 3, 2010
I read the news today, oh boy...
- War
- Corruption and censure
- Rich getting richer
- Murder
- Theft
- Hate
- Oppression
- Religion
- Suicide
- Disease
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Hot Baths
I've usually chalked it up to the difference between air temperature and water temperature, much preferring to be covered in warmth than wetted down and left to stand in the cold air. But yesterday, whilst plugging my nose and limply lying in the bath, I had another, altogether more primal thought.
As I pinched my nose and sank beneath the steaming, still water, sounds became far away, sight was gone, the incessant need to inhale and exhale became calm, my muscles completely relaxed and I was suspended in time and space. Into that space came the metaphor of a womb, the ultimate iconography of protection and warmth. For those precious seconds in my hot bath I can feel protected and insulated, free from the hurry and worry and the constant drive that even my breathing and heartbeat demand from me. It is more than relaxation; it is freedom.
Be well.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Grudges
I hold some grudges, not many I hope. The baggage from that childhood lesson for me tends to manifest as a fear, an expectation, that others will hold grudges against me. That leads me to be hyper-paranoid about every glitch, every misstep, every impropriety. As a middle-schooler, I was so hyper-paranoid of being judged and pigeon-holed that I would silently mouth back to myself every sentence that I spoke, just to be sure it was correct. My friends noticed this very obvious practice and would then (and sometimes still) tease me about it. It probably looked very funny, and I look back and can laugh about how it must have appeared. But I still remember the terror of speaking. The terror that I would offend someone with words or syntax and it would be forever held against me. These days I just quickly repeat my sentences in my head. :)
I'll just breathe now.
Be well.
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
A seed of thought
King, Carmichael, and Malcom X were all at odds about the use of violence to achieve their goals.
What did Ghandi achieve in the end?
Can it be done with votes?
I'm not sure it can.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Stuck in my head
Monday, October 18, 2010
Collared

Saturday, October 16, 2010
Our House, is a very, very, very fine house

It's all so overdue
Friday, September 3, 2010
Something worth posting
This morning, Maggie, as 10 as the day is long, donned a pair of baggy denim overalls over a T-shirt and headed off to school. She was the reflection of the Megan that I met in 1996, 18 years old and living in a couple of pairs of denim overalls. She looked so much like Megan to me that in that moment, as I looked at my wife, all of the girl that I knew, all of the child that has been a part of how I've known her, melted away. I saw for the first time a woman, a professional, an educator, an adult. I saw her cares, her responsibilities, everything she balances--she was suddenly mature to me. I could see all of the times I've treated her as a child because I once knew her as one. She's accomplished, respected and driven. She even looked different. I've used the words "class" and "elegance" to describe her before, but I see now it was only in reference to what I thought she could be. Today I saw, for the first time, that mature grace and soulfulness that she holds. And I knew that I was in over my head.
And so, as if to reinforce my new discovery, she gave me a second moment to shred my paradigm.
Megan has been leading her students for these many years, and I've never been in the right place to witness her connect with them. Well, today she did her faculty introduction, which is a tradition for new, full-time faculty at Bethel College. It was stomach-punch sincere, with complete control over her audience. I've never been enraptured by her like I was then; standing tall, confident and in control, she handed her students (the entire student body) a piece of herself with the dignity and grace of Jacqueline Kennedy O'nassis. And I knew that I was in over my head.
Sunday, August 15, 2010
New Song - Fear of Failure
Saturday, August 7, 2010
America Revisited
In an old dusty well by the side of the road.
Where lawyers and bankers'd tied on old rusty anchors
And left her for dead with their dollars in tow.
And blue in the face at the end of a rope.
A sign there did read, "Passers-by ye take heed,
The death on this rope once was our great hope.
I found America, witless and wandering,
Matted grey hair and a tattered old coat.
Once the strength of the people, the spire of the steeple,
But twisted by greed her own downfall she wrote.
You can hitchhike for four days from Seattle or Saginaw,
Board you a Greyhound for Tucson or Maine.
By plane or by train, it's all one and the same,
Of America's future only memories remain.
I found America, waving and smiling,
Her hair it was perfect, her teeth nearly shone.
I drew back the curtain just to be certain
But her smile was for sale, her words not her own.
I found America, red, white and blue,
Lost in the distance between me and you.
Send your tired and your poor to her great golden door,
But remember, above all, to thine ownself be true.
I found America, hope for tomorrow
In the cycle of life, the cycle of sorrow.
Are the deep and dark eyes of my son and my daughter
The one saving grace of my mother and father?
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Peace
Pacifism is the active seeking of peace in the face of violence. Pacifism and peace are very different. Many people are committed to, beholden to, pacifism and experience little peace because of that commitment. Since it is, by definition, in defiance of something, pacifism is not a peaceful experience. It's much the same concept as, "Imagine there's no heaven" or country or hunger. Peace is something achieved only after the struggle to achieve it becomes obsolete.
Sunday, August 1, 2010
A new song - The Road
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Coming soon!
Thursday, July 8, 2010
I may have just had plastic surgery

Thanks for the sentiment, honey
Those looks to my gut are a great motivator early in the morning when I don't want to get up, or don't want to keep going.
But it still stings a little. I used to be really thin. Too thin, probably, but still.
Be well. Well is good.

Sunday, July 4, 2010
Big Win Week!
Monday, June 28, 2010
Discipline
I am wholly undisciplined. No more. I've agreed to run the Flatrock 25K in September! Training began today with a 4K run, and I look forward to becoming much more disciplined in every part of my life. Here comes an intense effort to marry fun with adulthood! Wish me luck!
Thursday, June 24, 2010
I should have said weeks ago...
Monday, June 21, 2010
Fathers' Day
Recently, my mother-in-law needed some work done on the house. It seemed that some little birdies had made their way in through a water-damaged corner of the eaves and were none-too-quiet at night, interrupting Mary's sleep. Standing on a ladder, examining the damage, it became clear that the gutter in that corner had been overflowing for quite some time. After a trip to the lumberyard proved fruitless (they were out of the material I needed) I decided to patch it up with some boards until I could get the correct material.
I searched through the garage for the items I needed--wood, a hammer, nails. I have discovered before that going through the belongings of someone who has moved on, readily transitions into nostalgia and memory hallucination. This time around proved no different. Over here is where he used to sit with his chiminea, feeding it hickory chips for that distinctive smell. Over there is the corner that he always seemed to be organizing, never making any headway. Here is a perfect stack of lumber, exactly what I need for a temporary patch. Perhaps he had set it aside, four, maybe five years ago, saying to himself "that corner by the bedroom is starting to rot--I'm going to need to patch it soon." And as I gathered his things and began the job, I wondered what he would think, to see me acting as an adult, serving. As an Episcopal Deacon, his call was to serve, much as our decision to become Mennonites was in answer to a need to make the world a better place. And here I was, serving in his place.
On a summer day fourteen years earlier--to the day for all I know--I walked out of my new girlfriend's house, where we'd been spending the afternoon. As she pulled away from the house, I turned the key in my ignition, only to be greeted by the sick sound of a dead battery. I walked nervously back up the house, where I had to ask this girl's dad (who I wanted to impress!) for a jumpstart. Of course he was more than happy to help, brought around his car and jumper cables and handed me one side. I stared blankly at the cables, realizing I'd never jumped a vehicle before. I asked him what to do, he showed me, with neither hesitation nor judgment, and we got the car running. As he collected the cables from me he turned back, his blue eyes shining with that sparkle I would come to love, and told me: You know, this is really one of those things that girls expect all-American boys to know how to do.
And now here I was, fourteen years later, working on his house, and I wondered what he would think--how does it look to see the gawky teenager at the door asking for your daughter grow into a man, a father, a friend? To be sure, it was painful, and poignant, to be doing the work that I wished he had been there to do. But it was also a source of pride, and a bit of a nod to his belief in me.
The hole is patched, Jim. The birds have not made their way back in. I still need to get over to the lumberyard and pick up that proper material. I won't wait much longer.
I hope I turned into something like what you hoped your daughter's husband would be. I'm still trying. You told me you knew I would. Your grandkids are beautiful. I wish you were here. Happy Fathers' Day.
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
For Megan, the one true thing I know
You could say I lost my faith in science and progress
You could say I lost my belief in the holy church
You could say I lost my sense of direction
You could say all of this and worse but
If I ever lose my faith in you
There'd be nothing left for me to do
Some would say I was a lost man in a lost world
You could say I lost my faith in the people on TV
You could say I'd lost my belief in our politicians
They all seemed like game show hosts to me
If I ever lose my faith in you
There'd be nothing left for me to do
I could be lost inside their lies without a trace
But every time I close my eyes I see your face
I never saw no miracle of science
That didn't go from a blessing to a curse
I never saw no military solution
That didn't always end up as something worse but
Let me say this first
If I ever lose my faith in you
There'd be nothing left for me to do
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Meditation on Imagine by John Lennon
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine there's no country
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace...
You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one
Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed nor hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...
You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one
It's not really about religion, or God. Come on, folks. I was going to link you to some of the online discussion surrounding these lyrics, but a simple search will show you all the fanatical positions out there. Don't be scared.
John Lennon's--and my--opposition was not to religion as spirituality, it was to what religion has become: an excuse to marginalize, caste, demonize, murder, judge, separate, oppress, and devalue people. Let's open our eyes, Religion--big "R"--is a sham. It's a competition. Who's closest to God? Who's cornered the market on truth? There are a few churches who manage to avoid getting hung up on the dogma and leave room for the diversity of our world; but not many. It just feels so good to be on the "right" team.
The same goes for "country," or "nation," or "state." It's a club, it's a creation. It's nothing but an idea. "What about our culture?" some will say. Nations don't have culture, people do. American culture in Hillsboro, KS has distinct and important, unashamed differences from American culture in New York, NY. Free your mind! We've all, worldwide, been sold these clubs that have colors and their own flags, and someone is telling us that we should be willing to kill and be killed in the name of something that isn't even real. In our blood, in the eyes of whoever is watching the human race, we are the same! Languages, flags, customs and colors can never change that! It's so much easier to just love.
But in the end, it all comes down to selfish human pride. Greed. If I own the best truth, and the best stuff, and the best team, I can demonstrate that I'm the best human. Why do we have so much more than we need? Why do we need to raise ourselves up when so many are pushed down--pushed down by the very mechanisms we use to raise ourselves up: religion, nationhood, status. We starve them, we damn them, we kill them, and we believe we're better. And we back it up with our faux-Christianity, which mimics the Pharisees and ignores Jesus' message that laws are made for people, not people for the laws.
Imagine ALL the people living life in peace.
Filter
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Moments
On some level, that has to be okay.
I think the easiest way to drive yourself insane is to be too acutely aware of all of the things that are happening without you, and allowing yourself to feel small, insignificant or unloved in that knowledge. Life goes on around us, everywhere.
I cannot allow myself to blot out the moments I experience by mourning the moments I WISH I'd experienced. The world--even my own personal world--moves without my direction; and it CAN. It is okay not to be chosen for every moment, it's not a critique.. They're allowed. You're allowed. I'm allowed.
Breathe. Let go. Live.
Friday, April 30, 2010
My dangerous blog
I need a summer day, with nothing on the calendar, no wind, no agenda. You know the kind of day where the earth grows life into you from the soles of your feet, and the sun shines life onto your skin in waves of glorious warmth. And then, when the sun has set, the sharpness of stars against the black sky remind you that the universe is vast, and the guitars play softly around a fire as voices rise here and then there in snippets of song, young children sleeping on their parents while the older children laugh or argue together.
Someday everything is gonna' sound like a rhapsody,
When I paint my masterpiece.
--Bob Dylan
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
The smell of things
The people scared me in their various states of dependence. Wheelchairs, walkers, canes, slobber, wordless cries of dementia, the smells of bodily waste and Lysol all crowd my memories of those trips. Before we reached the gathering of people, there was always the stale smell of cafeteria food; bland and fibery. As I write this, it occurs to me that these trips are quite likely to have been a major contributor to my distaste for hymns.
Last week I went to visit my grandfather at his new home, an independent living division of a local retirement community. As I drove in--on my scooter as usual--the smell of "old folks home" food entrenched itself in my nostrils until I was well past the primary care facility. I found Grandpa's new place (Grandma died--I can't even remember when; 2001 or 2002. Grandpa is remarried now) and went to the sitting room in the back where he was eating a roll and watching the ducks on the pond. He greeted me with the slightly confused laughter that has marked my last few conversations with him. We talked for an hour or so and I headed on my way.
On my way back through the complex I couldn't help but feel sad about the toll age has taken on him, and how close he is to sitting in the seats of those to whom he used to sing so many years ago. Time marches on, and age erodes our faculties as surely as the sea wears away the land. Sadly, but almost predictably, no amount of time I see him in his last years will ease the pain of the years we can't live again; the years that we cannot hold more closely.
Such is this life.
Be well.
The Hunter
Not surprisingly Orion was the first constellation I learned to identify as a child, and is one of only a few I still recognize. The perceived alignment of the stars of Orion's belt are a thing not often seen in the tumultuous heavens. There is something comforting and orderly about that string of cosmic pearls. It's easy to see why the ancients wove stories around this elegant, giant feature in the spring and summer skies. Welcome to the seasonal skies, my old friend; your presence is welcome.
Be well.
Monday, April 19, 2010
My Sword of Damocles
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Holy Week-what I think
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
I win
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
On a fine spring day

Thursday, March 25, 2010
FYI
All we are saying
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Mixed
Last night I volunteered for an overnight stay at the local homeless shelter. I suppose the hour-and-a-half of sleep is contributing to my mixed feelings, as well.
I come away from this experience feeling a whole lot of different things.
First, people are generous. Any number of people have given time, money, food goods, linens and countless other items to provide a place out of the elements for those who have no home.
Second, I'm thankful. I have a home. I have skills to barter in order to pay for a home. I've never been homeless. I talk overmuch about bad experiences I DID have--but we were never homeless. I know that my grandfather gets a lot of credit for helping out when times were bad, but it occurs to me that there are probably anonymous church folks hiding in the fabric of that story as well. I'm confident in this because I've been an adult long enough (not to mention in the business of philanthropy) that I can recognize the staggering number of acts of kindness that are carried out daily without any credit being requested. I'm just certain that kind people, people I speak to in the grocery store, stepped in to help my family when we were in need. Whatever my philosophical differences with them are today, I am thankful for their kindness.
Third, I know a con-artist when I see one. There was an apparent theft at the shelter and it stings to see people who have next to nothing also be robbed of their ability to trust others.
Fourth, I recognize that I am suspicious of people and their motives. I think I've always been this way. I think it must be a deep-seated insecurity of some kind.
I'm sure I'll have other thoughts, but my tired mind is having trouble tracking.
Be well.
Monday, March 15, 2010
Idle hands
Yet our concept of heaven, what we believe to be the origin of all that is helpful and right, is one of a gate and an oral exam; for some literal, for others figurative, but very real. There was a gate that promised "Arbeit Macht Frei," but lied. There were the literacy tests that disenfranchised black Americans. There were swimming tests through which only failure could prove one was not a witch. I don't subscribe to gates and tests.
When my hands and my heart are busy doing the work that is helpful and right, I cannot find the time to damn those who work with me.
Would that it were always so.
Be well.
Saturday, March 13, 2010
One of my favorite things
Very often this look is one her partner doesn't see. But watching a woman view her lover through the eyes of love is one of my favorite human moments.
Men have looks they give to their lovers as well, but being an admirer of "the woman" as I am, it's the look of love on a woman's face that makes me glad to be alive.
Occasionally, with the explosion of photography today, you'll find this look captured in a photo.
Mostly though, it's a look she saves for the moments she's proud to be in love with her lover. A look that she really didn't mean for anyone; a moment of pure love.
And it's one of my favorite things.
Be well.
Thursday, March 4, 2010
My daughter, the great person
Monday, February 22, 2010
As for me and my house, we prefer words.
I know I've bitched ad nauseum about how Maggie's weakness ruins school for her, and that hasn't changed, but I'm going to focus on the positive.
To talk, to really talk, is a heartwarming experience. Her life and energy are a jumpstart after the drains of a day full of thinking, thinking, thinking. To talk to her is to live.

A thought that I'd like to say more on later.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Terrify Tissue
Monday, February 1, 2010
Whatever will they be?
This is not a consuming question for me, one that drives each decision and direction with a pre-determined outcome in mind. It's one that only rarely occurs to me, but each time it leads to an interesting self-study. I have never much felt myself to be anyTHING. I think the closest I've ever been was in high school when I viewed myself as The Actor. I enjoyed theatre, always felt good at it, and received a lot of validation. Even so, though, I enjoyed sports and classes, though I never felt them to be a niche. I sort of dabbled in a little of everything, and my friendships reflected that. My social circle dabbled in a little of every group, with no strong attachment to any one.
The few times I've had to ask myself as an adult, "What will I DO, what will I BE?" I haven't had an answer. As we awaited Maggie's arrival, and as I finished my degree (two standout "adult" moments in my life) I distinctly remember these questions being completely bewildering to me. Still today I have no strong sense of self or direction, no overarching identity to which I cling. I told someone recently that if ever I leave Bethel, I would not likely seek a job as a fundraiser. I don't consider myself a fundraiser, I fundraise FOR BETHEL. I suppose something else may ignite a passion for me down the road, but I have no idea what it is.
This lack of a self image that "fits" is a little ironic. I'm admittedly narcissistic, spending more time than I should meditating on how I "came off" in certain situations, very interested in how people see what I do. Part of that narcissism keeps me talking in mixed company, though I often go into social situations telling myself, "Sit back and watch this time, learn from other people." That self-centeredness definitely manifests itself primarily as behavior that assumes everyone wants to hear what I'm thinking, unfiltered and unencumbered by "appropriateness of situation." But I have a real distaste for aloof arrogance, so I present as kind of a blushing, self-depricating narcissist. See, total shallow presence in disparate identities with no serious residence in either!
In fact, digressing in this post from "What will my kids be?" is clear evidence for my narcissism.
I only want them to love and be loved. In the pressure cooker of child-rearing (how early to start sports, arts, reading, learning, social interaction, religion, etc.) I want them only to be loved and to love others.
And I wish for them freedom to be. May we grant them the freedom to be. To paraphrase Nanci Griffith, there in their future, I hope I've not failed them.
Be well.
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Get back to where you once belonged
I visited California for work last week. I always have the same feeling when I travel: I can't wait to get back to Kansas. It's just home.



Tuesday, January 26, 2010
In the city
I was thinking while driving through a high mountain pass on Highway 5 to get to Los Angeles that the sea and the mountains (in such close proximity here) each have their own distinct call. I've always heard the sea more clearly and I think I know why. The sea, like the prairie, works hand-in-hand with the sky; one just melts in to the other. So I suppose I understand why the poet in the psalm lifted eyes to the mountains as a tangible example of larger than life majesty, but my help comes from the sky. In the sky is the reflection of depth and beauty that should be the goal of humanity. In the sea and the plain exist a deliberate and steadfast march to the sky, contrasting with the mountains' tumultuous struggle to climb there and overcome it.
I long to be amongst you all again, and to take your arms as we guide our children to the sky.
Be well.
Friday, January 8, 2010
A whole new world, a dazzling place I never knew...
21st century, 1st decade
In January of 2000 I was:
-adjusting to the news that I was becoming a father and husband (Technically a husband much sooner than I was functionally a husband. That one took a while.)
-without a vehicle
-living in Emporia, KS
-a renter
-working as a bartender
-a college dropout
-22 years old
-dyeing my hair black
-120 pounds
-a cat-owner
-sporting a goatee
-without goals
In January of 2010, I am:
-father to a 9 year old daughter and a 4 year old son who are my joy and my bane :)
-dedicated to being a partner with my wonderful spouse
-driving a minivan, with a scooter for warm days, and a truck that I can't figure out what to do with.
-living in my hometown of Newton, KS
-a mortgage-payer (not a homeowner, big difference)
-working as a fundraiser for Bethel College
-a college graduate (this still makes me melty happy)
-32 years old (although more often than not I have to think about how old I am before I answer)
-quickly going gray/grey depending on your side of the Atlantic
-160 pounds
-a dog owner
-determined to grow a beard
-driven to make the world a better place, a more tolerant existence
Monday, December 28, 2009
I get tired
Saying the right thing
Teaching
Learning
Caring
Filtering (Yes, I do filter)
Planning
Leading
Following
Thinking
Big-picturing
Talking
Getting dressed
Hoping. How I'm tired of hoping. Can't good just be?
Loving
Rat-racing
Refereeing
Fixing
Eating
Trying
Being
Condescending
Affirming
Owning
Working
Warring
Thank goodness for a partner who I can fall onto. May I be the same for her.
Thanks, Megan, for riding along.
"I could use somebody; someone like you and all you know and how you speak." That's the line that makes me like that song so much. You're so much to me.
(Use Somebody - Kings of Leon)
Be well.
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Monday, December 21, 2009
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Um, please bring back Hannah Montana...
Monday, December 14, 2009
Language just says so much
Red flags:
anything dealing in absolutes:truth, manifestation, revelation, unquestionable, infallible, unchanging
anything pointing to the "power" one gets from God: judgement, Hell, Satan, damnation, conversion
any language that marginalizes others and their god-realization: non-believer, infidel etc.
Coldplay
Third-Eye Blind
(the opposite connotation of red) flags:
love
patience
humility
acceptance
tolerance
Be well.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Bethel College
What could these rafters tell us, had they the capacity to say?
Cracked and worn with age, perhaps with the cares
lifted to their vaulted heights,
while overlooking the years of song, of prayer, of play.
What of this court, with its polish, its wax and its lumber?
Stained most certainly by sneakers, by blood, tears and sweat.
A witness to glory, depths of despair;
emotions belying its warm shades of teak and of umber.
On these paths of repose have paced strides unnumbered;
lovers, pranksters, rule-breakers bold.
Whether a stroll or a sojourn
their memories drift; spirits unencumbered.
On this green field of play, what stories are kept?
What camaraderie, brotherhoods, sisterhoods forged?
What ghosts still linger
on this emerald sea once the crowds have all left?
And these hallowed halls, in their grand disrepair?
What secrets could they reveal? Those of singers and actors,
--students on a shifting stage of life.
A lifetime, and more, of memories there.
As a nourishing mother, a difficult brother, a friend;
these walls and these footsteps are not ours alone.
Under a fall harvest moon,
what for so long has lived, shall once more newly begin.